I often wonder why G-d takes such effort in being merciful to me. I take such effort to walk away from his calling in my life because I fear I have nothing with which to offer to him.
Sure I am well versed in The Bible scriptures, but I have not read the Bible for days and its a pattern with me. I realize that I have the most wonderful Savior anyone could wish for. Yes he died to save me but why, for what good did He see in me.?
There is so much I want to do for him, but where do I begin? I realize there is so much I owe him but there is also no way I could ever pay him back. To pay back the L-rd would insult his grace toward me and that is not my aim.
I want to know him more and more every day he gives me to live but satan distracts me with petty jargon garbage and things to could up my life. It seems the answer is quite simple, submit to G-d, resist the devil and he will flee from me. But every time I am tempted, rather than submit to my G-d, I fall to the temptations.
I am left with the feeling that I am garbage and if I were anykind of Saint of G-d, I wouldnt have committed tresspass against my L-rd Jesus of Nazareth. But satan hates me because I am taking his place in heaven one day. Lucifer was the Music Minister b4 the L-rd and he had all the instruments built into himself within his being. Now that Lucifer has been judged, G-d has created mankind to take his place. G-d didnt stop there.
As I said G-d didnt stop by creating mankind to replace Lucifer but while creating us G-d formed us in his Image. The place where in hebrews it says G-d made him a little lower than the angels, the word for angels used is mistranslated. It really says a little lower than G-d right there in hebrews. G-d the son took upon himself the nature of man and in doing was put a little lower than the Father.
You know I didnt plan on preaching in this blog but since no one reads my blogs it does not matter does it. I am human and would love to forget my humanity sometimes, I would but then I would be dispatched far from helping out anyone else. I figure this is true because if I was raised to heaven away from earthly suffering, how could I ever be touched with the feelings of others tribulations and sufferings, if I never went through any of them myself.?
The truth be told were all human and there is no one exempt, even G-d himself in the person of his son Yeshua (Jesus) felt what we do. And the L-rd died to save us from hell. If there is no hell then Jesus died in vain, for if there is no hell then what did Jesus die to save us from.? Hence there is a literal burning hell. Dueteronomy 32:22.
My greatest fear is, that one day I could lose my soul if I dont truly know Jesus personally and intimately.! Yes once you pray salvation prayer you're saved. Yet if you do not get to know Him (Jesus) then you will lose your soul and burn in hell evermore neverendingly.
Remember I said this, for it is faithful and true. Jesus said "Not everyone who calls me L-rd L-rd will enter heaven." Many pray Jesus save them but then never maintain their relationship to Him. In the end Jesus said he will say to them these words "depart from me you workers of Iniqity for I never knew you" and not that Jesus didnt know who they were but Jesus is saying there was no relationship there between them. It was that G-d created that person but they never wanted to invest into their relationship with the L-rd G-d. No investment yeilds no returns and you will eventually give back that talent G-d gave you, which you hid in the ground because you feared the L-rd in the wrong way and should had reverenced his name. Matthew 25:14-30..
Thank you for reading my discourse this day my Children.
Despise not my words yet lay them in your heart and forsake not my law says Adonai.
Pharez1_2 aka Carl~~~
